I'm back (again)

Hi friends, it's been ages since I've ventured back to my blog. Maybe it's because I didn't really have that much to say? I don't know...

Anyway, I guess it's time for an update.

Jade is nearly 19 years old which by my standards makes me "OLD"! She's doing so well at Uni and has made the Dean's Honour List (picture me squealing like a kid when I heard LOL) She and the love of her life (Aaron) have just celebrated their 4th year together (and back in March, Brian and I celebrated our 28th year together!) 

Mum lost her brother a few weeks ago and is in Ireland at the moment. 

Brian's CFS and Bi-Polar are pretty bad. I see glimpses of the old Brian now and then but most of the time I feel like I'm with a different person. I love that man with all my heart and that will never change. If I have to live my life waiting for the sparse moments when I see my old Brian, then that's what I'll do and I'll thank God for every glimpse. 

Me? Ha ha. I really wish I could say that my life has changed but nothing has. I shall battle on though and never give up hope. 

I've done a few layouts and cards this year (at the beginning of the year) but that's about it. I want to create but just don't seem to be able to find the inspiration. I tried to go back to the scrapbooking sites that I used to practically live at but pretty much popped in and left straight away. I have no idea why. I miss my friends so much but feel displaced. It's got nothing to do with the people, it's me. Once I get back into my artsy ways I shall again return to that wonderful world and hope my friends will forgive me for leaving.

I am going to try and blog regularly again...no promises but I shall try. I'll leave you with the lyrics of a beautiful song by Bryan Adams. In a way, I suppose it's how I have been feeling lately.

It's from the movie "Spirit" and called "Sound the Bugle". The last two verses are particularly lovely... 

Sound the bugle now - play it just for me
As the seasons change - remember how I used to be
Now I can't go on - I can't even start
I've got nothing left - just an empty heart

I'm a soldier - wounded so I must give up the fight
There's nothing more for me - lead me away...
Or leave me lying here

Sound the bugle now - tell them I don't care
There's not a road I know - that leads to anywhere
Without a light feat that I will - stumble in the dark
Lay right down - decide not to go on

Then from on high - somewhere in the distance
There's a voice that calls - remember who your are
If you lose yourself - your courage soon will follow

So be strong tonight - remember who you are
Ya you're a soldier now - fighting in a battle
To be free once more -Ya that's worth fighting for